|Still haven’t cleaned my mirror.|
So here we are. Week 40 and still full of baby. Hopefully won’t be hanging on for another 10 days like last time… or I may go mental.
I’m tired, but not overly so. I’m hungry a lot and I’m likely to mood swing at the drop of a hat, which is completely out of character for me and really rather wearing. I’d like to have the baby just so I can stop being loopy! I think I even threw something a few weeks ago, only I can’t remember what it was or what it was over. All I know is I’ve never thrown anything in frustration in my life!
Given I’m also the nearest thing to a jungle gym a very boisterous toddler has, it has become a daily battle to be able to sit down for five minutes without Abby crawling all over me, poking, pushing, prodding, kicking, squirming, slapping… all the fun stuff. And I really wish she could do it without extreme pain and discomfort on my end! She doesn’t understand and I don’t really want her to stop, I just want it to be fun for BOTH of us.
The midwife still keeps telling me I look tired despite my wearing several extra layers of bronzer for my appointments. I’m past the getting-a-complex stage and have gone straight for weary resignation. You hear something often enough, you begin to believe it! Ok, ok, I look tired.
I’ve also cleaned everything I wanted cleaned and done most of what I wanted to do with some work bits and pieces. Everybody’s screeching “nesting!” at me, but the last time I scrubbed a skirting board at 3am is… never. I’ve had to force myself to do a few things every day or every couple of days because I know once the baby comes I won’t get any time and I’ll be staring at a mouldy fridge feeling incredibly shit about it. And I’d really rather not. I did not sweep the floor for THREE MONTHS after Abby was born (oh my god did I just admit that on the internet) and the pile of crap was so big I took a photo and sent it to my husband. With a toddler and a newborn, I don’t suppose I’ll sweep for a good 6-8 months, so if I’m not going to do that, then imagine what the bathroom will look like? I need a head start!
Today I have a child-free day with no marking, no work and not really much else to do. I think I might use it to sit down for a very long time with very many pots of tea and enough reading material to wallpaper a small house or caravan. It will be just my luck this kid will decide it’s time to arrive.
No rest for the wicked 😉